Less Is More – I’m Dropping Out

You all are probably like “WTF is going on with this girl” in regards to my marathon training. :)

I wrote about my struggle.

Then I wrote about how I was happy with the new training plan I created for the last week.

And then, yesterday, I wrote about how it was “off again.”

Yeah, WTF.

I think I explained before, but I started training for a Jan. marathon last October. Yup, as in six months ago. I couldn’t run due to sickness + dehydration + concussion. I was sooo bummed. There were lots of tears. And during the expo (I still went ’cause my BF and BFF were running) I had a knee-jerk reaction and signed up for the next possible one I could run.

I have no idea why I thought that I would WANT to jump right back on the training-wagon?

I think it’s a combination of things. (1) I was so sad I couldn’t run with my BF and BFF and share in the experience with them. (2) I was still under the mentality that MORE is MORE. Three hours of running on a Saturday = not really feeling guilty about treats. Many hours per week of hard workouts = weightloss. (3) My pride was a little hurt that my BF and BFF could say they ran a marathon and I couldn’t.

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Aside from #1, those are silly reasons. And then there’s the feeling of letting people down. I mean, I told so many people I was going to run one and now I’m dropping out? I hate quitting. I don’t quit. Especially when things get hard. #TWSS :)

Anyway, I took last week off of running. Completely. I still worked out and did cardio, but I didn’t run. I was hoping that would leave me refreshed and wanting to get back into it… but it was the exact opposite.

Monday I set out for a run after MUCH debating. I told myself I would at least run 4 but 8 if I was feeling good.

During that run, I realized that I am putting way too much stress on myself to do something I don’t even want to do anymore. My goals have changed. My mentality has shifted. My desire to do ANYTHING else aside from run has grown stronger. This isn’t just an im-in-the-high-point-of-training-and-it-sucks thing. It’s an im-so-rundown-I-cant-fathom-running-one-more-step thing.

So I walked. I freaking walked.

I honestly cannot remember the last time I stopped to walk during a run. Not during hard speed runs, not during my 20 miler. But I had to. After 2.5 miles in, I felt like I physically and emotionally couldn’t do it anymore. Sure, I have a flair for drama… but I’m being real.

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So, I am dropping out of the marathon. And I don’t even want to run the half. I don’t even want to run a 5K or one mile. I don’t want to put on my pretty new running shoes. I’m sad. I’m disappointed – but it’s 100% the best choice for me in this moment.

Less is more {right now}.

And I’m writing this detailed post not to whine, but so I can have something to look back on when June 1 (race day) rolls around and I start to regret my decision or when I read awesome marathon recaps and start to get jealous. It’s not for me {right now}. And I think I have accepted it and feel a huge weight off my shoulders. :)

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There are better things ahead!

Treat Yourself Tuesday

Purchases (aside from food and gifts) have been few and far between, lately. BUT! I do have a few to share, so I am linking up with this lady.

First, these beauties I have been wanting for like, ever.

The BF was all like “you’ve wanted these for months.” And that’s when I corrected him to YEARS. I don’t remember when exactly, but I have been eyeing these boots for years. And when we made an impromptu trip to Boot Barn Sunday afternoon, they were on sale for $199. YOU GUYS! The cheapest I have seen online is $250. It was fate. However, they only had a 7.5. I tried them on and they were definitely too big. So the nice lady called other surrounding stores and turns out one store had a display size that was left in a 6.5 (normally a 6, but cowboy boots run small). See? Totes fate.

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And we will ignore the fact that they left the security ink think on them so I have to take them back this week so they can remove that.

I took them home and we had a little photo shoot. #notsorry

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They are just so beautiful. And the wing/peace sign combo reminds me so much of this girl. She loved peace signs and wings. <3

Anyway, I am obsessed. I just spent a good amount of time browsing Nordstroms and Free People for a hippy/country dress to wear with them. Hippy/Country is totally a thing, incase you weren’t sure. Totally is.

Over the weekend, we treated ourselves to some REI over the weekend too. Where I literally “treated” myself to running treats. Apparently that was when the marathon was still “on” and now it’s pretty much “off” again. But that’s neither here nor there. In addition to the running treats, I got a pair of running compression shorts (for all workouts), a running hat (that I could easily where whenever because it’s cutesy) and some pink little girl hiking socks. Best part about having small feet is that you can wear kids shoes and socks. <– Kids get all the pink, glittery shit. Um, “adults” like pink and glitter too!

What else…

Oh yeah! Chris treated me to some sunflowers. They’re beauts. :)

And you already know about our Friday treats of wine, dinner, movies, fro-yo. Yes, it was as awesome as it sounds.

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In other news…

We got the MB fixed yesterday. :( Seeing him in his little cone nearly broke my heart. He’s doing well and everyone at the Vet just LOVES him. I mean, who wouldn’t? (Maybe I’m a little biased but he’s just the cutest thing!)

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And his little bandage was just adorable.

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You want to know what else is a treat? Having a 4 day work week. Seriously makes me happy. I think I may schedule a massage Chris got me as a gift for Friday. Yeah, I think I’ll do that. :)

Have a fabulous Tuesday!

Marvelous

I feel like I got so much stuff done this weekend! It was a healthy mix of productive and relaxing which is the best kind of weekend, no?

Friday, I finally got my eyebrows threaded.

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^^ This was right after the appointment and there is barely any red. The BF makes fun of me because after waxing I’d look like a clown for a week!

For those of you who don’t know about eyebrow threading, it will change your life (?). It hurts a little less than waxing and you’re not scolding your skin with hot wax and then ripping it off. Your brows only stay red for about 10 minutes and you can get the same shape with threading as you can with waxing. It’s usually cheaper to thread, too. When I used to get my brows waxed, they would be red for days. But I’m also allergic to the wax… so there’s that.

Then we had a hot date to Twisted Rose Winery and a painting class.

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Twisted Rose had really good wines.

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And yes, our waiter let me add Sangria to my flight list.

 

Dinner was just OK, but the wine was good. That’s all that really matters, right?

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What’s left of my dinner.

Once we got to the painting class, there were 6 empty chairs and our instructor found out that the group of 6 got into a car accident on their way… so the class was cancelled-super scary. I hope it turned out to be nothing too serious. So, we called it a night and got two movies and some Fro Yo -> our typical “go-to.”

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And then we made a pact to only get ice cream once a month… it was becoming too much of a habit for both of our likings.

Even though I had still kind of planned on running Saturday morning (despite me week off)… I didn’t. I had my alarm set and when it went off I successfully talked myself out of it. Then I felt a bit guilty about it and then I realized that I’m still on the fence about the marathon. Ugh, I am the worst decision maker, ever.

I worked out, we cleaned, we drove around to some Crossfit boxes to check out the location and went to REI.

Then we hung out at the pool while I read Insurgent and the BF studied for his next Actuary exam. Those actuaries are allllllways studying so it’s nice that he could do it by the pool. :)

Sunday we slept in a little bit, had a leisurely breakfast and some Starbucks.

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Then I did a lot of cooking which included these homemade protein granola bars. The BF said they could give Chewy a run for their money. I think he liked them.

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We did more cleaning, more pool time and another spontaneous shopping trip to Boot Barn. Let me just tell you… it was fate to see these boots “on sale.”

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We finished out the night with the best roasted chicken I have ever tasted. This lady is a genius. And I want to know who first THOUGHT of beer can chicken (or beer-up-the-butt chicken. I’ve heard it both ways. haha). Seriously. What a weird thing to come up with. Weird but delicious.

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That was a super detailed recap of our weekend of chores and errands. It was Marvelous none-the-less. :)

MiMM

 

FIVE Things Friday {04-11-14}

It’s been so long since I’ve done one of these. And they are quite possibly my favorite posts of the week. :) Or it could be that these posts mean it’s Friday which is also my favorite. Who cares! Let’s get to it. :)

(MB is excited it’s Friday, too.)

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five things i ate.

Ribs. Yum.

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Sweet potatoes + ground turkey + eggs

Shakes (a few frozen banana slices, protein powder, half water/almond milk, ice cubes, coffee ice cubs, spinach)

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Shepherd’s pie with a cauliflower-sweet potato mix on top.

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Stir Fry with Cauliflower Rice

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Clearly I have been eating a crap-ton of eggs. I have about 2-4 a day. Ha!

five workouts:

1 elliptical HIIT

3 weighted circuits

1 round of elliptical steady cardio for 20 minutes

1 body weight circuit

No runs, so far. Maybe one tomorrow morning.

posts i loved: (clearly I read a lot of things I loved this week)

Why We Need to Stop Shaming Confident Women -> yes

33 Promises Every Relationship Deserves

What I Miss About Being Fat -> Interesting

What If For A Moment -> Love this.

75 Thoughts Every Jogger Has While Ou For a Run -> Hilar.

A Family’s Year of No Sugar -> Cool. I don’t know if I could do it!

five things making me happy:

Seeing the fat little nugget ride on Chris’s back while he does push ups. Seriously makes me smile ear to ear. TELL ME THAT DOESN’T MAKE YOU SMILE!

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My more laid back approach to this marathon- I’ll talk more about it on Monday.. Letting go of a time goal has been such a relief for me. I know I could run sub 4 if I really wanted to put in the work (and stress). But I don’t. Not worth it at this point.

This sample from ULTA. This stuff is amaze. Hair so soooooft.

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Hashtag texts. So funny. My sister and I got my stepdad into talking in hashtags. Hilar.

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Coffee. Specifically Chameleon Mocha. Our local Sprouts carries it now. It’s $3 cheaper AND more delicious than the regular when paired with chocolate stevia. I have to show some serious restraint if I want a big bottle (gives eight 4oz drinks) to last me a week. Yikes.

five things i’m looking forward to:

Easter brunch paired with mimosas. Can’t.Wait.

Chris’s father and stepmom visiting in a month. Yiiiiipppeee. That also means Chris will be done with his test, which I also am looking forward to. We can only have one stressed case in this house and I have reserved that spot.

We got the Save The Date from my brother & his fiancé. Makes me a little more excited for St. Lucia in a year. (Still so long away!)

Starting Crossfit. I am not exactly sure when I want to start, but I picked out two boxes I want to visit and see which one is a better fit.

Deep cleaning the house. I’m not looking forward to the cleaning part but I am looking forward to living in a CLEAN house again.

OH! One more. Our painting class tonight. YAY! It will be so fun.

things i’m going to buy after my Lenten promise is over loving lately:

This hat. OMG my BF’s cute little sister has it and I stalked her to find out where it was bought. She said she didn’t care if I bought the same one so I am totes buying it after Easter.

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This bag. Need this. There’s really not much to be said besides it’s gorgeous and I’d give it a REALLY good home.

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These boots. Yes, still.

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These printed shorts. Ugh, love.

Happy Friday, friends! :)

Couple’s Tag!

Hey!

Chris’s best friend’s (from college) wife, Lindsay, has a cute little blog called The Newlywed Notebook where she talks about all sorts of fun things. She did this blog tag about her and Eric and I loved it so much I wanted to join in!

The Newlywed Notebook

And just for fun, here’s a photo of Chris and I from their wedding. From what I remember, it was a blast. ;)

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1. Who said “I Love You” first and when?

Chris did when he visited me at Drake one weekend. It was only like 3 or so months after we were exclusive, too. I think prior to that weekend I had sent a text that said something about “you better love me” (jokingly) because I picked him up a bottle of Jameson with a fake ID for my sorority crush party that weekend.

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I’m pretty sure his words were “Is it too soon to say I love you?” :)

2. How long did you date before you got engaged have you been dating?

A little over 5 years… and we found out that around the 5 year mark, the pressure is ON. ;) Just kidding. Neither of us feel pressured from anyone, but family and friends are starting to be more blunt about it.. which is fine. I mean, who doesn’t want to go to a wedding? :)

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3. How did you know that your spouse BF was “the one?”

Honestly, after we moved in together. After a year or so of dating we would talk about marriage right after college, then I got scared. It had nothing to do with our relationship, per say, but marriage all of a sudden gave me anxiety. Of course he was incredibly understanding and neither of us has pressured the other one into anything, so that’s been awesome.

Or, when he agreed to let me have the master closet.

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So after moving in together, things went (are going) way better than I ever imagined. I knew it was either going to make or break us, and safe to say the marriage anxiety is gone. :) Maybe because it basically feels like we are already married?

4. Was your first year of marriage living together more like a dream or a disaster? Why?

Dream! Honestly. Not only are we saving money (I think? Clearly I do not manage the finances. Haha) but it just feels normal. We both do things around the house, split chores, finances, etc…

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5. What is your favorite thing about your spouse boyfriend?

I’m going to piggy-back off Lindsay’s answer and go with support. I can be impossibly unreasonable sometimes, and he puts up with me. I am usually indecisive, changing the way I am eating, working out, dressing, etc. and he supports it all. He supports my wanderlust and dreams of being an entrepreneur and his love never waivers. And I would say I am a crazy person about 75% of the time. :)

6. What is the one thing your spouse boyfriend does that drives you insane?

LOL! Let me pull out my list. Just kidding.

I think it’s when he interrupts a story I am telling and asks silly questions or for details that don’t matter. LOL! It’s funny to think about it, but when I am in the throes of a dramatic the story, the last thing I want is someone to stop me and ask me a detail that I deemed unimportant. Haha. Or, when I just need him to agree with me but he defends the other side or tries to justify it/make it better.

I think it’s the difference between his analytical mind and my not-so-analytical mind. Or just men vs. women. :)

7. What is one thing you do that drives your spouse boyfriend insane?

Probably leave the toilet cover (not seat) up or making unconsciously pushing all the sheets on our bed to the bottom. Leaving the bathroom counters a complete disaster with hair products, make-up, hair tools, etc. Or just being crazy. It’s a toss-up.

8. What was the funniest thing that happened on your honeymoon first trip together (PG people, keep it PG)?

Oh, tough call. I would guess I consider our first solo-trip to visit his Aunts and Grandma in Florida. Let’s see… I completely ate shit on the boardwalk while jogging back to the hotel with his Aunt. That was pretty hilar. Or having to dress up as pirates one day (hair, makeup and tshirt/accessories) and walk around Disney. Or drinking WAY too much at the Wine Festival thing Epcot has and photo-bombing and getting photo-bombed.

…Maybe those were all “be-there” things. ;)

9. Who the bigger cover-hog?

Totes Chris. And he’d definitely say I am. But I’m always right!

10. What is one thing you and your spouse couldn’t live without?

Travel. Adventure. Vacations.

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We are always planning our next trip, adventure, date night out, concert or whatever. We definitely share a love of those things and traveling together is so much fun.

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Food would be a close second. We both love to eat!

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11. If you could make your spouse boyfriend get rid of one thing that they own, what would you choose?

Probably his HS graphic tees (AE, A&F, Aero, etc.) :) Luckily most are gone after relentless teasing.

12. If your spouse boyfriend committed a non-violent but illegal crime, would you turn them in, cover for them, or join them?

Cover or join. I guess that would depend! Like, if it was an illegal crime where being quiet was involved? He’d be better off just having me cover because I am not stealth or quiet.

13. What’s one tradition that you and your spouse boyfriend have started now that you are married living together?

Hm, usually we put up the Christmas tree while enjoying some wine. We wanted to make it a thing of going on a short trip over Easter, but that was only a one-time thing. Those are all I can think of right now. Unless meticulously scheduling holidays between our families counts as tradition? Or picking up Meatball poop?

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14. If you and your spouse boyfriend could only take one more trip for the rest of your lives, where would you go?

Europe. Although I have never been and he has. It’s our second vacation in the queue. There are just so many beautiful places in Europe!

I might consider Glacier, because it’s hard to imagine GNP getting boring.

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15. What is one goal you and your  spouse boyfriend want to complete in the next year?

Typical – save for trips. We have St. Lucia and Europe planned, so saving is high on our list. Paying off loans and building a bigger savings is also up there. We don’t really have much of a set budget right now, we spend when we want and save when we can… but we are for sure putting more effort into saving!

Take these questions and answer them on your own blog and link up with Lindsay :)

Happy Thursday <3

The Struggle

The title is a little dramatic, considering my struggle is totally a #firstworldproblem for sure. But it’s real. I am legit torn about whether or not I want to run the San Diego Marathon.

First let’s recap.

I trained for the Phoenix Marathon.

A week and half before said marathon I got super sick with a bacterial infection and then passed out due to dehydration and got a concussion. Apparently doctors recommend not running 26.2 miles after those circumstances. So I went and cheered.

At the expo, I signed up for the San Diego marathon. Because I was totes vulnerable and sad about not running and I didn’t want to lose my training so that was the next soonest marathon I could run.

So I started training, and it was rough in the beginning. Then it got better… and I am getting a tiny bit fasterbut my heart isn’t in it.

Part of it could be my aggressive training schedule because I really want(ed) sub 4. But since the weather is getting hella-hot, I have put that goal aside. Sub-4 in the heat isn’t realistic for me. I melt in high temperatures. ;)

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Another part could be that the long miles are sad without a running partner.

Lastly, the thought of having to run 7 miles today, 8 on Friday and 18 on Saturday with HIITs M/W on top of strength training (<– which I am stubborn and won’t give up) makes me want to cry. Give me 5 mile runs. Give me short HIIT cardio sessions. But PLEASE don’t make me run 8 Friday and then 18 Saturday morning. It’s not even like cutting back on mileage would solve my issue – it’s just I am over running (right now).

The BF and I have a wine and painting class on Friday night at 7. My first thought was – can we re-schedule because (1) I have to be up EARLLLLY Saturday morning if I want to beat most of the heat and (2) I am not sure I want to drink wine before a long run. I am kind of a stickler about that…and I would much rather enjoy my Friday night without a long run hanging over my head.

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I remember getting burned out last time, but that was when we only had a few weeks to go. I still looked forward to my long runs thought because each long run was a new running distance PR for me. This time, not so much. Been there, done that.

But still, I can’t decide if I should just man-up and stick with it, or just do whatever exercise I want and be happier (!!). If I pull out of the full, I might still do the half because I want to go to San Diego, I already paid and because I am truly convinced that anyone can run 13.1 miles and it’s SO much less time consuming (and I like running shorter distances).

Then I got to thinking why I wanted to run anyway. Was it because I like running? Sure, but do I like running 15-20 miles? Not really. Was it because I wanted to say I ran a marathon… because it is a definite challenge? Yes. Was it for the 26.2 sticker I could put on my car? Maybe. ;)

But in all serious-ness… I am so torn. I hate giving-up, but I am also hating training right now.

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So, that’s where I am at. I am leaning towards just transferring to the half and calling it good or cutting back on training and just run it “for fun” instead of time. 6+ months of marathon training wasn’t a good idea… lesson learned!

Thoughts? Advice? Help!

Marvelous…

MiMM

Marvelous…

Is a weekend where I went to bed around 8 both Friday AND Saturday night.

Marvelous…

Is a weekend where I didn’t have any obligations.

A weekend to run errands (if I wanted), to watch Netflix (if I wanted) and to bake (if I wanted).

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…Well there was one obligation.

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And there was one not-so-marvelous baking incident. Flour. Everywhere.

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Marvelous…

Is time with the BFF. Whole Foods for brunch and then pool time.

Marvelous…

Is the MB and his growing underbite.

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Marvelous…

Is reading while the MB lays (and plays) in the rocks. And eats dirt.

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Marvelous…

Is good luck?

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Marvelous…

Is yummy food.

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Marvelous…

Is going to bed early (again) on Sunday and feeling mentally refreshed today! :)

Thanks Katie for hosting!